Len x Piko: I Never Meant To Fall In Love

I never meant to fall in love.

I sat alone in my room, gazing out the window, lost in thought. Why did it have to be him? Why did he have to be so goddamn… him? Why did I have to be like this? I felt disgusting, these feelings toward him…
"Len, dinner's ready," Rin's voice called into my room melodically, and I sighed, not bothering to get up. She walked into my room, the white bow on her head bouncing with her steps.
"Uh… Are you okay?"
"Fine," I said emotionlessly, and she sat down beside me.
"Lennnnn," she said, drawing out my name, "Tell me."
"Later," I said, dodging her question, "Let's go to dinner." I smiled faintly at my twin, and walked downstairs with her. I passed Piko in the hall, and I felt my cheeks heat up slightly as my pulse quickened, and I smiled, properly now.
"Hello, Len-kun, and Rin-chan" He smiled back, cocking his head to the side slightly, making the plume of silver hair on his head flop around. So adorable…
"Hi, Piko-kun…" I looked him in the eyes, his beautiful, crystal-like eyes, one green, one blue…
"Come on, let's go down for dinner," Rin said, stomping down the stairs. Piko followed, and so did I.

I couldn't look him in the eye. I couldn't let him know my feelings. It was wrong, the way I felt… it's not like he could ever feel the same…

After dinner, I showered, and went to bed. I just sat there, staring out the window… Piko's room was below mine, and his light was still on… maybe I could go down and say goodnight? No… no I couldn't…
I lay back on my bed and wrapped my blanket around me. I nuzzled my face into its soft, familiar smell. I couldn't tell anyone how I felt, not even Rin. I just had to forget about Piko, but every time I saw him… no, I couldn't…

The next morning I woke, with a sense of purpose. I would do it. I would forget him. We could go back to friends, without any other feelings toward each other. On my way downstairs he said "Good morning, Len-kun," just as he does every morning, but i just kept walking… it felt bad, but at least I wouldn't be so wrong…

Somehow, I lasted a week without talking to him. I don't know how. The only communication was a slight sidewards glance, a nod of acknowledgement, a second of eye contact… But I felt so lonely… Once again, I found myself sitting at my window, looking down at his light, in the room underneath mine… But then it switched off. It was too early for him to sleep, normally he switches his light off much later than this…
"Len-kun, please tell me what's wrong!" I hear his voice, that sweet, melodic voice belonging to the one I couldn't forget. I didn't turn around to face him, I knew he was waiting for me to say something, but I couldn't.
"Len-kun, please! Did I do something wrong? Why are you ignoring me!?!" Panic, anxiety, loneliness; all of them were in his tone. I didn't want to upset him.
"I'm disgusting, Piko, it'd be best if you didn't associate with me…"
"No, Len! I don't care, I can't stand it if you're ignoring me!"
"And I can't stand ignoring you! But it's something that must be done!!" I shout, turning to face him. His whole expression changed, and he started to tear up.
"But Len…" He mumbled, "I love you…"
That moment, everything changed. I loved him. He loved me. I was afraid, and I needed him. I needed him more than anything…
I took him in my arms, and kissed him.
He tasted sweet, the flavour of candy mixed with skin, and that taste was amazing. It was intoxicating, the way his lips felt against mine, his sweet smell, and our hearts beating faster as we continued to kiss, our arms wrapped around each other. I felt something bloom inside me, a flower of love finally able to blossom. He was everything I needed. Everything I could ever want.

I never meant to fall in love. But I don't really mind.